This post is part of Reverb10, a project that provides daily prompts in the month of December to help you reflect on the past year and set your intentions for the year ahead.
Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors)
I am leaving Kripalu, a yoga and retreat center in the western Berkshires. I finally had that breakthrough I was looking for, and now it’s time to leave. The sky is a cold, pale blue after a week of gray, mottled with clouds that are there to add texture, depth. A few days earlier I went for a walk in the woods, splashes of yellow leaves on otherwise naked branches, then later read about bear spottings in the area. The things we do when we don’t know to be afraid.
But this moment, here – I have known sadness, I have known fear, and now there is peace. In my jeans, tshirt and burgundy sweater, tapestried scarf hanging long, I feel – like myself. “At ease, soldier” – I am at ease. Light. I have relaxed this week, truly relaxed, and allowed all the junk to surface; looked it square in the eye, sweat it out, and emerged clear on the other side…
What would I do if I saw a bear in the woods?
The cab driver takes my suitcase and I slide onto the soft, cool, tan seat of his sedan, with copies of Travel and Leisure and Forbes tucked into the backs of the front seats for my reading pleasure, a box of tissues on the ledge behind my head, just in case. Outside sits the circle driveway that greeted me only six days earlier, ready as another new girl pulls up and it begins again. Unload the suitcases, give her the tour.
Connected. That’s how I feel. To myself, to you, to the lake I watched each day here with mist rising, sunbeams cracking through clouds. To my heart pounding, to my breath rising and falling, to my belly fat, to my toenails with the chipped black polish.
My scarf hangs long and keeps me warm and safe as we turn onto the main road, and the driver asks, “So – how was Kripalu?”