As I’ve mentioned before, I’m very moved by the Here and Now program I’ve been doing with the Academy of Intuition. It’s powerful stuff, and it’s getting me to go deep into my self in ways I have avoided, both willfully and unknowingly, for many, many years.
This week’s theme is role playing (no, not the sexual variety!). The idea is that we are always playing a role in every relationship we’re in, and that people come into our lives for a reason — to help us learn more about ourselves.
Yesterday I was listening to the latest audio lesson and meditation on my headphones while Clover ran around the dog park. I was moved to look up through the trees, an explosion of delicate green leaves, and then the instructor, Ghazaleh Lowe, encouraged us to “look up.” “Notice the colors of the sky,” she said, and I did. I closed my eyes, but she encouraged us to keep them open, and when I opened mine, there were Clover and a gang of mutts romping happily around the gravelly yard, and I felt a deep happiness in my heart.
I haven’t been able to get that song from Moana out of my head — those of you with kids know the one I mean, and for everyone else, here you go:
Catchy, eh? This guy named Lin Manuel Miranda wrote it — maybe you’ve heard of him ;).
Anyway, when the meditation I was listening to was over, I decided to listen to the Moana song. I found myself listening to the words more closely than I had before. And then I realized I was crying.
I’ve been standing at the edge of the water
‘Long as I can remember, never really knowing why
I wish I could be the perfect daughter
But I come back to the water, no matter how hard I tryEvery turn I take, every trail I track
Every path I make, every road leads back
To the place I know, where I can not go
Though I long to beSee the line where the sky meets the sea it calls me
And no one knows, how far it goes
If the wind in my sail on the sea stays behind me
One day I’ll know, if I go there’s just no telling how far I’ll goI know, everybody on this island seems so happy on this island
Everything is by design
I know, everybody on this island has a role on this island
So maybe I can roll with mineI can lead with pride, I can make us strong
I’ll be satisfied if I play along
But the voice inside sings a different song
What is wrong with me?See the light as it shines on the sea it’s blinding
But no one knows, how deep it goes
And it seems like it’s calling out to me, so come find me
And let me know, what’s beyond that line, will I cross that line?See the line where the sky meets the sea it calls me
And no one knows, how far it goes
If the wind in my sail on the sea stays behind me
One day I’ll know, how far I’ll go