What is real power?

(Good old Amanda, asking the small questions.) We're coming to you live from Carroll Gardens, Brooklyn, on a hot-as-summer May afternoon, where we're marinating in existential angst. Today's special: deep, probing questions about the nature of power. I've written about how my sense of power is tied up in my income. ("It eats away at your … Continue reading What is real power?

What’s knocking at the door of your life?

Last night I had a dream that someone or something was knocking, and it represented getting a step closer to becoming a full-time artist, and in my dream, I said to myself, "This is a perfect metaphor for what I'm going through — I should blog about it tomorrow." (Yes, I am apparently scouting for … Continue reading What’s knocking at the door of your life?

Doing what feels right (instead of what we wish felt right)

If you read yesterday's post, you know I'm processing some intense feelings these days. Feelings of shame, of loss, and — at the same time — hope. All tied to finally, finally listening to my intuition and becoming the artist I'm meant to be. So when Facebook reminded me of this blog post that my friend Lauree … Continue reading Doing what feels right (instead of what we wish felt right)

Releasing the noise of work

I've spent the last few hours wandering around my neighborhood without an agenda, fueled only by a desire to fill my brain with something other than the noise of my last few weeks at work.  

When I say "noise," I mean it literally and figuratively: I work somewhere with an "open work plan," so I am surrounded by people talking all. day. long. More than this, though, I mean the noise of our business strategies and brand stories, and of the narratives I construct around my standing with every single person on the team at any given point in time. I mean, too, the noise of the language I find myself using to fit into the culture, that I would never use elsewhere, except that sometimes I do, before I can stop myself. 

Starting a new job at age 40 for the first time since I was 30

I started a new job this week. It's the first time I've started a new job in a decade. A DECADE. Think about how much you change from age 0 to age 10, from age 10 to age 20... Well, I started my last job the year I turned 30, and this is the year I turned 40, and here I am.

Are all 10-year intervals created equal? Is 30-to-40 the same distance as the distance between 5 and 15? 60 and 70?